Disorder

I'm back again, darling,
Forgive me for leaving,
You empathise as you
Watch self-deceiving,
Then grieving,
Not once believing
What I'm telling myself.

It starts with liberation,
And I think I can go,
Think I've a choice,
Put on a good show,
But then start to grow,
Start sinking through woe,
Love, I need you to save me.

I can't deny you, angel,
Can't deny my return,
Need your arms around me,
You need mine in turn,
Sweet heart; make me burn,
Make me squirm and churn,
And yearn for substance.

We give and we take,
Put us back on the verge,
I'll fight back soon,
But for now, feed my urge:
Drive me to purge,
Sing that same old dirge.
Send me to sleep.